Burning Man Trip Reflection.
I have spent a lot of time thinking about the trip since my return. Heck - I was thinking about it the whole way home! I think as a whole - the trip was unsuccessful. And I plan to dissect it fully before I contemplate a return. So the following blah blah is more of a recording for myself to READ CAREFULLY before another trip. It is interesting how the memory fades and all that is left are cool pics..
Good things:
- I met many nice new folks at Buscamp.
- The van ( engine wise ) ran perfectly with the OLD engine.
- The route was staged better because I was on my own schedule.
- Wyoming was actually a nice drive!
- I took some great pics with the new recoh camera. I wish I knew how to use it better.
Bad things.... well .. I think several minor snafus snowballed to put a tarnish on the whole trip.
Blew the [ insert here ] budget
- 2 hours after I left home, Eric called to let me know the basement was flooding from the rain.
From there - I started doing a mental tally of effort, energy, time and $ i spent to make this trip happen and it became clear I really really blew the budget. I had not even crossed into Ohio and was thinking "WOW..what have i done...."
- I started working on the engine replacement in MAY and work went really slowly reflecting my learning curve. So 3 weeks before I left - it became clear that the engine replacement was not going to happen in time for the trip. SO the engine sits in the garage, along with a BOAT LOAD of new parts AND a rebuilt 5 speed transmission. A big investment in Time and $.
When it was clear that the swap was not going to happen - I quickly came up with a triage plan for the old engine and was working on it right until the day before I left ( which did not help the stress level...) So for all the efforts and money on the new engine... i managed to get the old engine running quite happy(!) after 2 years of grumpy grumpy and dicking around with VW garages taking money and not really fixing things..
Since the trip was going to be a long one - I short circuited most 2010 vacation planning with patient Eric for the whole year.
Multitasking failure
Work was quite busy when I left - so I decided to work "on the road" - thinking it would be easy
to drive 7-10 hours and day..and then pop open the lap top and pull another 7-8 hours of work out every day of the drive out and back. That was a cute idea - but it was really tough to concentrate after long drives. I DID manage to get some good sketches finished on the road that I was quite happy with but... very tiring and left little time to poke around.
This was ALL being processed before I even arrived in Nevada.
Hence -
Small snafus snowball...
My NEW Optima gel cell was dead the SECOND DAY of the trip. I think that my leaky subwoofer killed it. So even after a 2 day charge in Salt Lake with a brand new battery charger -
NADA. This snowballed further when arriving at the Playa - my new solar panel and charge control decided not to talk to said battery or anything wired to it. - thereby negating the solar panel investment and leaving me with no running water in the van. grrrrr
I had the propane topped up in Nebraska at a KOA. It was only 1/2 full from my 2007 trip and I wanted to be all set at Burning Man. Seemed OK later in Cheyenne when I cooked Chinese ( Yum!) But then the first night I went to cook at BusCamp - NO gas. Zero. Empty.
I do not know if the guy did not fill it right or whether I left the stove on(?) but there was no cooking half the food I brought..... :O( Nor running the fridge.
Driving alone had some advantages but also tiring draw backs. The cross country trip is something to share as an adventure, otherwise it becomes a fairly quiet transportation process.
Lack of Posse
I had spoken to several friends and Eric ( of course) about attending with me and had been VERY upfront about the harsh environment....and the interest level...always dropped off.
And to be honest ... if I did not have the VW angle to this adventure... it would have much less appeal to me as well.... Yet over the week I kept spotting events and things I knew Eric and friends would love. Especially the Disco roller rink....
But on arriving at Burning Man - I met a lot of nice Bus Camp veterans from the west coast who have all gotten to know each other from previous Burning Mans and other regional events. Very welcoming folks but sometimes it felt I was really on the outside looking in. This was definitely a reflection on me. I think that would be different next time around, but it made an impact. I am never that comfortable inserting myself into groups and had to fight the instinct just to solo the whole week. ( was not really successful with that one...) That also runs cross grain to the Burning Man experience of just plunking down with people you have/have not just met and having a good time. ( Not something I do easily...)
This was all magnified mid week when I managed to get all ready for a BusCamp event and then was literally left off the bus... no one to really blame - but definitely a funk starter.
From there it seemed like the daily event or component that I would be looking forward to always seemed to deflate right in front of me. And while there was amazing things going on right around me I should add...
Playa Factor
All of the above would be entirely manageable except for the Playa Factor. This component seems to fade from memory the fastest unfortunately. Camping on the playa is not easy...
Hot HOT HOT and very dusty. A tough camping environment that no one makes a secret of...
Literally from 12 - 3 everyday I was under my sunshade. The sun was too bright and i was risking sun poisoning. Other hours I was constantly spraying more sunscreen on top of whatever playa dust i was already coated with.. yucky.
The dust part drives me crazy. Which will make any BM veteran laugh. It is a part of BurningMan and it is futile to fight it. But I do. I really never thought of myself as a high maintenance person - but spending a week with a fine coating of dust on you and everything around you drives me NUTS. It is directly hitting an idiosyncrasy button of mine.
Apparently it is noticeable - as my friend Pavel at BusCamp made comment that it was entertaining to watch me in 2007 try to keep ahead of the dust... and all I could remember was wondering how anybody could be happy sleeping and rolling in Playa filth for a week. The daily dust storms happily defeat any efforts to fight the dust. Getting in a 2 hour dust storm after dark.... is a whole 'nother world. Especially when the only goggles you have are the darkest ones you could find for use in the daytime. I nearly walked face first into the Burning Man himself because i could not see 12 inches in front of me.
I kept myself together in 2007 despite the environment. But 2010 - with all the other stuff on my mind - I really let it get to me. Despite an actual shower at BusCamp and 3 boxes of Body wipes - by Saturday I really was mentally done with the whole event. I was not relishing the idea of trying to get out of the event Sunday along with 20,000 other people - so I left early. I knew in hindsight it would seem to have been not a big deal just to stay - but at the time - I told myself I really wanted to leave. So I did.
Rush rush rush
The trips out and back always seem rushed. Driving by so many neat things - always in a rush to get to Nevada and then after BM - just wanting to get HOME. And another memory lapse became apparent on the way home. In 2007 - I had just reluctantly sold my home due to unemployment. NO complaints - as I saw a fairly nice equity gain and the bank account was full for the trip. So I never did an accounting of the costs for the trip. Mistake.
All day driving in the van requires 3-4 tanks of gas. KOA camping comes in at $30 a night
and then there is food. Multiply that by 10 driving days and a couple of hotel stays and
that is a serious chunk of money in a short period of time. Paying for it Solo really can empty out a bank account fast! And normal bills do not cease because you are out of town. So my return to new york had a couple of $$ meters running on empty. Did I mention I maxed out my credit card on Van parts before I left NY......?
Participant vs Observer
I tend to run well in a participant mode at new adventures and settings. And for BurningMan there are LOTs of opportunities to do so. But the Cross country part of the adventure really makes that difficult... No opportunity to "Do" something for BurningMan because I am stressing out to make sure I actually get there... and my daydreams of cool art projects are not compatible with dragging across the country.... ( at least not yet... :O)
Now - after all this crabbing - if you look at my pics - you can see that I was surrounded by Amazing things..... hence the need to fix and analyze, fix and try again! :O)
Pics => Glowstick fun with Joel, Ramona and Matt
Pics => Fire Spinning at BusCamp
Pics = > BurningMan Art and trip
So! I am already trying to figure out a plan for 2013. Some could easily say to drop the whole idea - but that is difficult when it is clear the trek CAN BE an amazing adventure. and I just did not get it right. Further thoughts or directives for 2013
- The van must be squared away and not require the whole summer to prep.
- I need to bring Eric for a part of the trip and friends to share the experience
- I need to be a participant in this creative outlet ( already sketching that one out... :O)
- I need to actually budget for this trip
- I need to slow the trip down to smell the flowers
I am sure I will figure out more as the next 2 years unfold......
All of this recorded to contemplate before a possible return in 2013. I will need to plan around this experience or risk a repeat.
